这是我的心声

还是原来那个我
不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺
迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么 爱错就爱错
早点认错 早一点解脱
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉
第二段：还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用
每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么 什么都没有
早点看破 才看的见以后
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
我总会把你戒掉

every time write something on my blog for sure
something happened only feel to write something =.=
aizzz...i don't know why..just feel like very very
ANNOYING this freaking few days...
everything that happened to me is serious hard to
settle...FML...ish.....
money money..i need money.
and then i could buy whatever i want...weee =)
now...dance is my life~ gambateh for my future
don't ever try to disturb me...

3-11-2010 ♥

yeah...i'm photo shooting once again ..hees
the venue is ipoh's railway station...
and it was like very tired that day...
but then everything is still going ok.
started my dance lifes ..
serious its fun and full of joy...
the others way to release my everything
my sadness and madness =)


I DON'T WANNA SAD

SEE! IM HAPPY RIGHT NOW =D

and ya..trying to pass my freaking bored holiday....
so...support for myself right now...go zhiying XD

开心开心=）

哈哈，朋友们都在考试噢，我在家睡觉，哈哈，第一次那么幸福 XD
爽呆了，但是，还是我还是会支持你们的啦，不要不爽我拉朋友，
伟大吧=) 在家无所事事，玩电脑又不是，看书，没有可能咯，
我现在期待去 D ONE 学舞噢，然后想出去工作的，妈咪不给噢 =(
叫我帮他做更好噢~渣到。哎哟，=（
我真的好想每天都更新我的部落格啊~没时间加上妈咪不给上网，
周末才可以噢，不爽咯。期待着，hairpoint 的 hairshow,
这几天到哪里给他门练习都跟他们有说有笑，开心死了，哈哈，
蛮满意我的发行啦，那个臭 galvin 弄的。
还特地为那个show买了一套晚装，
又是自己出钱，呜呜呜呜，T.T
那个傻婆讲要来我家过夜然后一起去噢当天，
都不知道是不是真的，是就最好啊，有人陪我了，哈哈。
我都不想回学校了，呆在家里都变懒惰了，
回去又要练排球，练到要生要死，
不想咯！才变白回一点点，哎~要这样咩？那个臭GOKU 也是的，
每天都要我们有纪律，做人真得很难呀，还要看这样能不能那样能不能，
算了啦，不用紧啦，是这样的咯，不然可以怎样，=(
ken和 nikkie 叫我去KL 咯，爽死了，哈哈，
大家说一定要玩到疯疯癫癫，
不错不错，哈哈，很久没有和朋友一起去旅行了，=)
哇，写华语很慢哦，下次再考虑才用华语写，哈哈。

no title again...juz to release my every thing here

haiz....is like i've been hurts many ppl...
sory guys....espcialy the few ppl....
i noe u wan show to me tat u are gud...
u treat me gud...but im not love u at all
u, u and u....realy treat me as good as well...
but is not that problems....is we realy cant be with
i think so..but i dun noe arent u guys think so too...
u said ur destiny was so bad...cant realy be with girl..
when u are realy in love with a girl...then i hope u listen to me
find a better want...i aint a good and perfect girl...
i noe i serious hurt u dis time...u smoke unstop and spoke nothing..
everyting i did saw it...and another of u...u buy lots of thing to me...
but i dun wan this...is like not u treaten me gud then i will be with u
mayb u juz to hope can treat me nicely then u happy..
but u are too stupid to do that...and another of u! u are veery kind and nice person
i more dun dare to hurt u..i asked u stop to put any hoping on me..serious....
sory guys...hope u guy understand about me...i realy did feel tired...
tomorow exam again....no mood..breathless....end....sleep

SO SAD BECAUSE OF SCHOOL OPENS !

aiz ..is time to schooling le....end up my holidays lifes soon...
wuwuwuw....then tomorow is our exam start...
what the hell is this ...poi lam high school=.=
i realize that after i chg to there..is juz like exam always
freedom freedom please....dislike dislike...haiz
is like im missing someone now (k.L) .hees <3

ops...i hate the gadget

ish...doing and renew my stupid blog whole day....but gonna be crazy because of the stupid Gadget la...i cant move it back to right hand side..=( sad...so ugly right now=.= who can hlp me... u guys should see what is hapening now...wuwuwuw....nvm ...is happy because i had play sdo with tat dumbo koon meng...the one who alway wushu..wa cha cha at school..hees..tomorow go jj watch movie..nice nice...~

FINALLY

i think we really is not that kind of match of character la...
at last also need to give up everything....
however....sad...cry...still miss bout the memories...
still have to chose this decision i think =(
i don't know how to get alive between this la...
is like no idea already....so toilsome and heartbroken seriously...
nevermind...chai zhi ying....cheer yourself ~please....
be happy be happy...don't think much!!!!
my last wishes here...i wan him take care himself probaly!
no sad...no troublesome and yet just happy =)

i hope u will und bout me

is like very sory lo....we too complicated..aiz...

im not dont wana to agree that u wana do that at facebook..

is like realy not consider to put it to show ppl....

and i told u what..my situation is not well...

maybe because of that....u not happy already....sory..

im dont hope to make u unhapy want la...

and now...u say urself be4 being sohai is because of me rite..

i understand evrything...so~ my fault...now...

u have chossen this way to settle it...i respect u then...

and u said that im hapy because im dreams come true today..

sory..im not..but u wana think so..then u juz to insist of this opinion..

i realy realy nothing with it and not mind at all...as long as u happy...

im okay then~mayb be4 i dint misgiving bout ur feelings...

im to feel embarrassed ...a million of sory wana tell u here...stay hapy...

please be awake bitches!

why until now i still the moody mode.....so tired man~
please...who can ever save me out of this fucking kind of
rubbish world...i felt more shameful with those bithces
that i ever met...is damly disgusting..DARN!!!
u guys make me felt weary ...fed up of ipoh already...
if i get the chance transport to KL...i swear i WILL!!!
u guys have enuf qualifications to e SLUT...oh yeah...
don't get me the chance to laugh u guys please...LMAO.
the main point who make me mad is...the fugly AMC slut..
who is the one real seafood(lala) and yet her fren and
ppl is backstabbing her around ...include infront of me...
she don't noe she is the one who get hate by everyone...
she still dare to judge about me...please..dont u noe
what is going on!u got what qualifications to judge me....?
since u are the one who real lala and u are an agitator...
stupid mie? use brain la...need i teach u how many times?
not bored mie...u dun bored i also bored la wey...dun make me
always waste my time juz always scold u guys on my blogger la..
polluter...SHIT....u wan judge bout me juz straight go and
find my mom...tell my mom "auntie ur daughter how how how"
lol...if u dun feel shameful la~if u be awake u will realize tat..
u have no point to simply judge me "lala"...and u will really realize tat..
u judge me 'lala' becuz of? u jealous bout me or? HAHAHA...am i right?

oh my gosh...my last post is on Sunday, January 10, 2010...
whats affects me to renew my blog right now....i don't know...lol..
maybe justin bieber? lol...he rocks my god....
between the days until now...had happened lots of stuffs..
kinda up set and sad =( haiz...all of this is after i transfered to
poi lam high school...what a disguting, oppresive and vexation lifes for me.
those fucking bitches is the 1st main point to me....what i did to u all guys...
dont even noe about u since i changed to there..
why made and brings problem to me? izit that funny for u to did that?
opss...i remind u now...u are so childish in this way....
sum more told out lots of impossible words and what i dint even did it~
what u guys have said u all should noe it ... haha...backstabing ppl is so easy
to get ignored after u guys did it?..no!! sorry...i have a pair of ears too...
not only u guys got a 'bitchy' mouth....lol...so smelly...go brush ur teeth please!
judge me be4 u use ur brain think please...
cares ur own words..and behave urself..
if rumors is so fucking fun for u all guys to spread...countinue then...
not my business ..haha...so bored la u all...take ur time study better...
so....i trying to ignore all of this~ huh....

JUSTIN BIEBER JUSTIN BIEBER i ♥ you so much~
the 1st time i listened his song_____baby ______
is so nice...made me repeating to listen it for many times~
second is "one time"~ awww...awesome....i love him so much~~
just now chating with frenx in facebook...he asked me...
if one day he is standing infront of me...? then how???will i faint...
lol...i answered i straight faint la please...
and then hope he bring e home...lol (dreaming)
after that rili got one guy scold me dreaming enuf..LMAO~

look at him!!! i wana faint ady...<3>

leng zai leng zai


fine la..ipoh is no such kind of person selected already...
keep dreaming then...lalallalalalala....
is late....time to sleep...end here~

end of my lifes?

i think lots of ppl and friends knew my stuff right...i have changed my school..how sad..miss my friends freaking damn muchly..especially him..many friends ask me dont change..but i cant do it..is my mom order..i dun wana get scold from her..i have to listen to my mom..and now she is sad of what i done...im regret..she hope i can be a better one..she wan i change a new area..new life..and start my journey for my targets..yea..felt sorry to my parents..mom...from now on..i will listen what u said..hope u totaly forgive what i did...i dun wana lives in hard way but give me some freedom..i will appreciate it if when i get even a single wan what i wish for...i have attend for my new school a weeks ago...sincerely is still not that comfortable for me..but is ok..many frienx used to comfort me in dis few weeks plus i have broken up with him...everyone asked me bout that...since im already moody on that why u all still ask me so much.=( i knew u all worried and cares about me...between thx...but dun keep ask me why, why , why, what happen.. i will more suffer...plz dont !!...

for him..a guy that i loves___we broke..then story end__before...we created lots of sweet memories...is memorable for me...our 1st...saw him at mcD ..he loving a gurl name XXX XXX ...he crazy loving her on that time..but both of them are imposible together..everyone knew it..so how? what i juz can do is..cheer him up when he moody..he alway called me for chat and told me all his stuff..he so miserable that time...how could he loves a gurl that dun love him so much...but juz fine..time gone and gone...we attend for starwalk..he saw her...but she dun even took few second on him..im not blaming the gurl..but she is realy dont love him..what to do..maybe we chat more..like dis..i started to got some weird fel on him..is called love? or like?

haha...that time..im thinking...CHAI ZHI YING..dreaming la u...stop ur childish way la wey...plz awake..ppl love her not u!!! and then...time to past and i try to put him down and then the feelings is like started less and less...abit nerve la me ...dun noe when..we started go to libraly with jing yi and edward gangs.for sure ..he involve too...all form 3 students..prepared for the PMR..almost go library everday..what a shock freelings..i will started to jealous on him..huhh~felt sweat...then...and don noe when also...jing yi sent me the recods..is a conversation between him and him! im frightened after listen it..he said he XXXX me...imposible izit i ask jing yi..then...jing yi ask me...do i still love bout him?..i whispered myself...hah...i juz put him down..dun play la...haiz...we pass through over lots problems..we get to be couple finnaly...

began..im freaking happy...loves him everyday..miss him everyday..joke with him everyday...hang with him sometimes..do whatever we like..my parents accepted him too..after 1 month like this...over problems and arguement have been started...he always broke the promised too..how sad..but i juz fine...and i called him dun do so...is not good for him..he premised..then 2nd time..again..2rd time ..the same..4th, 5th time oso..at last...i told him!!! if u do it again!!! we break..that all..since we i told him so many times he oso dun listen and take it as nothing...then i juz used is to be threaten...and our atitude is not match at all..alway create argue le...finnaly we chose to break...

i knew..he sad..for sure..i sad too!! im the one wanna break..did he noe...i cried? how my heart get hurt? is not easy..i avoid him..i wana him to forget bout me...he ask me why i close his phone...i noe like that he wont easy give up me..so that i used merciless to satisfy..i told him...i close his phone cause i dun wana see him anymore..i told him...i damn hate him...i told him..not to wait me...he ask me..why me like that? then i juz told him..dont u know im that kind of ppl?? huh..then conversation end...felt sad..but have to wait the time past and tolerate.!! i wait every one calm down only tok to each other..i wan him forget me...i only find him back..sincerely ...miss him..i will forgive what he did be4...hope he wont think of it anymore..is nothing..hope he happy alway...have lots joyful around him even without me!! im bad all the ways...not a good gf for him..so..we dont dificulty...

less online...school re-open...every one...behave urself....