end of my lifes?

i think lots of ppl and friends knew my stuff right...i have changed my school..how sad..miss my friends freaking damn muchly..especially him..many friends ask me dont change..but i cant do it..is my mom order..i dun wana get scold from her..i have to listen to my mom..and now she is sad of what i done...im regret..she hope i can be a better one..she wan i change a new area..new life..and start my journey for my targets..yea..felt sorry to my parents..mom...from now on..i will listen what u said..hope u totaly forgive what i did...i dun wana lives in hard way but give me some freedom..i will appreciate it if when i get even a single wan what i wish for...i have attend for my new school a weeks ago...sincerely is still not that comfortable for me..but is ok..many frienx used to comfort me in dis few weeks plus i have broken up with him...everyone asked me bout that...since im already moody on that why u all still ask me so much.=( i knew u all worried and cares about me...between thx...but dun keep ask me why, why , why, what happen.. i will more suffer...plz dont !!...

for him..a guy that i loves___we broke..then story end__before...we created lots of sweet memories...is memorable for me...our 1st...saw him at mcD ..he loving a gurl name XXX XXX ...he crazy loving her on that time..but both of them are imposible together..everyone knew it..so how? what i juz can do is..cheer him up when he moody..he alway called me for chat and told me all his stuff..he so miserable that time...how could he loves a gurl that dun love him so much...but juz fine..time gone and gone...we attend for starwalk..he saw her...but she dun even took few second on him..im not blaming the gurl..but she is realy dont love him..what to do..maybe we chat more..like dis..i started to got some weird fel on him..is called love? or like?

haha...that time..im thinking...CHAI ZHI YING..dreaming la u...stop ur childish way la wey...plz awake..ppl love her not u!!! and then...time to past and i try to put him down and then the feelings is like started less and less...abit nerve la me ...dun noe when..we started go to libraly with jing yi and edward gangs.for sure ..he involve too...all form 3 students..prepared for the PMR..almost go library everday..what a shock freelings..i will started to jealous on him..huhh~felt sweat...then...and don noe when also...jing yi sent me the recods..is a conversation between him and him! im frightened after listen it..he said he XXXX me...imposible izit i ask jing yi..then...jing yi ask me...do i still love bout him?..i whispered myself...hah...i juz put him down..dun play la...haiz...we pass through over lots problems..we get to be couple finnaly...

began..im freaking happy...loves him everyday..miss him everyday..joke with him everyday...hang with him sometimes..do whatever we like..my parents accepted him too..after 1 month like this...over problems and arguement have been started...he always broke the promised too..how sad..but i juz fine...and i called him dun do so...is not good for him..he premised..then 2nd time..again..2rd time ..the same..4th, 5th time oso..at last...i told him!!! if u do it again!!! we break..that all..since we i told him so many times he oso dun listen and take it as nothing...then i juz used is to be threaten...and our atitude is not match at all..alway create argue le...finnaly we chose to break...

i knew..he sad..for sure..i sad too!! im the one wanna break..did he noe...i cried? how my heart get hurt? is not easy..i avoid him..i wana him to forget bout me...he ask me why i close his phone...i noe like that he wont easy give up me..so that i used merciless to satisfy..i told him...i close his phone cause i dun wana see him anymore..i told him...i damn hate him...i told him..not to wait me...he ask me..why me like that? then i juz told him..dont u know im that kind of ppl?? huh..then conversation end...felt sad..but have to wait the time past and tolerate.!! i wait every one calm down only tok to each other..i wan him forget me...i only find him back..sincerely ...miss him..i will forgive what he did be4...hope he wont think of it anymore..is nothing..hope he happy alway...have lots joyful around him even without me!! im bad all the ways...not a good gf for him..so..we dont dificulty...

less online...school re-open...every one...behave urself....

christmas eve_____

lol...yeaah..is nice....but bored too..
1st..go parde wtih him then saw lots ppl...
back greentown celebrated with him
he so cute yesterday..at 12a.m
he gave me a ring..hapy...
kah seng oso gave me a present at eleven sumthng..
thxx him too..hehexx....

what hapen to my mom!!!

i juz noe that im freaking angry my mom today!!! ish...she promised me let me go out at 24th and 26th..24th is for christmas...and 26th is for my fren gathering..my friend en li is opening for a christmas party..i wana go..im gonna change school already..=(...my mom sudenly told me juz to chose 1 day..haiz...i dun noe lah..mayb she let me two days oso go..but 24th wont be that syok out whole day!!! haiz...fine..hate parents...love to break promise!! ...if she cant make the promise dun promise me then...huh..i damn miss my fren..not that realy willing change to the school...i dun noe why ..izit my problems?..2day i text with many guys..got 4 ppl straight asked me izit im moody..im so sockxx..how they gonna noe im moody..i juz text with them..for sure they cheer me too..thxx..the 1st ppl is zhen sen..2nd jason phang..3rd chris ho and 4th ppl is bryan ..well..dun noe why i go toilet cry for half and hour ..sum more play my phone alone inside the toilet.. for what..it doesn look nice in toilet also..-.- haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz

the whole week...=)

well...finaly i get the time to re-new my blog. last whole week..damn busy...for my family trips and follow by a buddhist camp.....monday we headed up to KL...then tuesday and thrusday genting..lol...i reach genting then go find the two dong dong kit yan and kit yeng..but they gonna back that time..so after buy ticket..i go theme park play with my brother..=.= so where's my parent..they go casino$...swt..then lose RM600...haha...laugh die me..then wednesday morning we back..

GENTING

GENTING PUB SO NICE

MY BEOTHER AND ME

JUZ ME

MY MOM AND ME

then folow by thursday friday and saturday i go for the camp..is totaly freaking nice ..and i make friends with many guys..they all are so friendly. my group header is so cares of us..and the issac..he is care of me too..cheer me up and gave me brave for go up the stage perform...thx..=)..haha..he curi gave me a pack of milo in the night..lol..yummy..and we played the station game at the second day..im gotta crazy..so rockx the game..but i get injured..lol..the whole body got lots of scar..i mis the day..miss all of them..looking for next year camp ^^

爱我青年生活营

cheau yee me and yasmine..mgs girl^^

my group header and me..i co him pig head..lol

the station game^^ (our group member)


everyone sure get wet..lol

no title..

whole weak wont be post anythng in blog...

lol..monday go KL..tuesday wednesday go genting..

and folow by thursday,friday and saturday ..

will be attend for a camp..lol..busy..

haiz..wish to hapy when having my trip..

take care everyone...

wtf..throat pain

i have been sicked for 3 days..untill now..
wtf...who can save me..my sound is like...
an old woman..lol...yesterday i have to perform..
but..i dint did it..i gv up...cuz my throat is freaking pain..
even speak also got problems..then i juz be a crew for the prom..
erm...quite not fun lo...lol..and my leg so damnly pain..
and yea..these why i hate to wears heals .i used plaster..
to hold on my pain..have to helped the organizer..
no idea..kept ran here ran there...
after that..the ball started..few activities is going on too..
i juz noe jackie won for the best dress prize..and joey too..
then the guy ask them to dance..
then i juz happy for jackie la.lol
after that..i back shop..jackie back parade..then he changed dress..
and headed up to my shop..lol...so happy saw him again..
sei sor zai my mom said treat him eat...
but when he back he throw me rm10...=.=




actualy i feel so hard..lol...my heart felt damn sour..

i used to told myself not to thnk too much..
especialy some one post the pic in the fb
but can not..although is juz a activity for fun...but fine..=)
dun noe why..i saw that pic i cr***
fucker dun try to beat me down..fugly

thx u la

yesterday im moody..he knew me cry...
he call me..chat with me..accompany me...
and yet...tum me...cheer me up...but i sudenly close his phone..
sorry..lol...dun wan disturb u only la..myself problem...
but anyway..thxx for caring me..^^
u always cheer me when im moody and down...
u are such a best good fren to me...hees...
i realy dun noe wanna how to requite u luu...
hope u happy always and have a nice day..